Toast Faces are in order from November 2013 - April 2014.
|(C) David Tubb|
Since the last Toast Faces, I would say I am probably feeling worse. Not necessarily on average, but just there appears to have been more space made for unfortunate pain and illness. I do not feel I am losing, no, but it is truly disappointing to be unable to see the friends I want to see.
Toast Faces are in order from November 2013 - April 2014.
Completing each Toast Face requires a surprising amount of concentration, particularly in these more later ones as I am often battling with muscle pain all over my body, varying amounts of headache, and rather limited sight. On very bad days, there are also elements of nausea, dizziness, and anxiety, which is understandable when you can't see or feel much of where you are.
As you can see, there are some sad ones. Often I like to make a happy one, even if I am feeling awful because it cheers me up, but it's also important to be in tune with how we feel, so I might make a sad one, or one with glasses to represent me.
I had rather a setback recently when I took a Sertraline for the first time. I basically spent the entire night being sick, and it was probably one of the most awful things ever. Above Left is my attempt at a Toast Face the following evening. I smashed it a few times with my weak fist for good measure. Above Middle is my attempt at an evening meal. I was choosing plain things. Ultimately, these rather more depressing Faces actually stand as reminders of how strong and brave I am. Above Right is another very exhausted attempt, but in them I think there's a lot of cheeriness hidden beneath their smashed faces, in the same way there's a lot hidden behind mine. They are proof that I am strong and brilliant to even think of smiling when feeling that awful, and that every subsequent Toast Face away from these three is a further step into being better again.
Some of these just really make me laugh, though. I was probably very tired when I made them, and I normally have a pretty good memory, but sometimes I look over them and think, "What the goodness is that?" because they look so strange.
Finishing up here on a more ghoulish theme: A Toast Ghost, and everyone's favourite Great Old Toasty One.
So yes, I'm rather pleased with this second selection of Toast Faces. I always make them at 8pm, because I find I need something to eat then to help me sleep, but I have to have something plain - so the faces only really exist out of a kind of lacklustre, which I manage to counter by turning it into a silly face. I'd rather not make them at all, because I'd rather be eating what ever I want, or even seeing my friends at 8pm, (imagine that!) instead of taking an entire hour to rest off to bed. The irony is, I didn't need this illness to teach me how to be respective of Energy and Time; I already knew it. I think a lot of people would benefit from that knowledge. Maybe there should be "International Sit Down at 8pm and Make a Toast Face Day"? Just a thought.
SIR DAVID ATTENBOROUGH
For a man who spent his childhood collecting stones, fossils and natural treasures, he has become a treasure of our own. He went on to become the controller of BBC2 and shaped it into the diverse channel we see today. Everyone knows him, everyone loves him. He is extremely kind and brilliant in any field. He is the kind of person I imagine remaining infinite - in the way that he was around long before I was born, I can picture him being around long after I am gone; I only wish that were possible.
A very English gentleman actor. He is both Phileas Fogg and Sir Charles Lytton (or "The Phantom", as he is known - an international jewel thief after "The Pink Panther" jewel.) And of course, many more characters.
"Well, old bean," he replied when asked why he seemed so cheerful all the time, "life is really so bloody awful that I feel it's my absolute duty to be chirpy and try and make everybody else happy too."
He is described as, "the meteor who lit up every room he entered," and his dinner party conversations were said to be spectacular. He certainly sounds so pleasingly cheerful and kind.
"It really is amazing," he said. "Can you imagine being wonderfully overpaid for dressing up and playing games? It's like being Peter Pan."
There's a kind of unwritten rule at school (primary school at least) that if someone has the same name as you, you are instantly friends without having to say anything. I have therefore known David for a very long time, and I was so pleased, all those years ago, to be sitting glumly in the first lesson of A-Level English, not knowing anyone, and in he walks - and spots me immediately too. We really had such fun in those classed with Ron (me in 30 years time) and Andy. We sat through Othello and found our favourite line in Shakespeare, "No," says Othello, "your napkin is too little!" We have had many, many laughs together - and he a few tellings off - and on the days when he wasn't in, every lesson was suddenly as glum and as colourless as it had been before he first spotted me.
David Tennant is a self-professed geek, and decided he wanted to be an actor following his love of popular TV show Doctor Who. Well, that certainly worked out well. Seems like he acts in everything - TV, Radio, Stage, Film. He was also the first person to use André Tchaikowsky's skull (which was donated to the Royal Shakespeare Company by Tchaikowsky) because apparently no actor had previously felt comfortable using a real skull. David Tennant always seems fun and excited by all his roles - he's always positive on set and stage, and seems to have inspired quite a few in the same way he was originally inspired by Doctor Who.
David Mitchell tends to have many funny observations, but he always works best when stuck behind a desk on a BBC panel show. He was for a time President of the Cambridge Footlights, which has had many reputable others such as Douglas Adams, John Cleese, Stephen Fry, Sue Perkins and Peter Cook, to name but a few. Apparently, when I'm also saying something humorously observational, people say I sound like him, because he does like to get a little carried away.
Now, I think David Tubb is a really nice person. He's had a lot of trouble recently with being very unwell, and I know that's been rather upsetting. Still, if he manages to get a blog entry done, then that means he's better!
He is, I like to think, as brilliant as David Attenborough, and as kind as David Devant, and as cheerful as David Niven, and as funny as David Kyson, and as loveable as David Tennant, and as witty as David Mitchell. He often goes out of his way to help other people, and always works hard on the projects he enjoys to produce something enjoyable for others too. Well, I can't help but think he is an admirable person, can I? It's good to be so proud of myself.
David Tubb is a writer with an interest in cryptography, psychology and magic.